JUST FACE IT

HELLO! WOW... I'm back from my normal routine. I was so laborious these days that I haven't written any in my blog. My summer class took most of my precious time. My professor required the class to write a one year training program. Fortunately, although tired, I was able to make it. I had worked for that paper for 8 days. It was a very knowledgeable experience since I learned a lot of things about basketball (come again? a what? basketball? wahahaah).

What's new with me?

Nothing much. I'm just still working as a part-timer, but this time my work becomes tiring and exhausting. I always enjoy teaching others. I share my experience and my knowledge about something. Everyday, I talk to different people with different personalities. Some are rude but many are thoughtful. Even if I'm tired, I always see to it that all of my student will enjoy my company. HARRY POTTER, CHO CHANG, MR JOLLY, MR KIMURA, MS LONDON, MS OPERA, MR PRINCIPAL, MR RUDE, AND A LOT LOT LOT MORE.

These people make my life more meaningful and colorful. I admire, treasure, and appreciate there stories. They would always tell me their experiences about life. Harry Potter and Cho Chang show their desire and interest by sharing their everyday activities. Thanks a lot.

HOW ABOUT YOUR OLD STUD "N"?

I don't know. I haven't talked to and seen him for a long time. Something weird happened. I couldn't explain it explicitly and clearly. I'm just so curious and have wondered why this thing happened (again). Before, we chatted like crazy as if tomorrow would never come. But now, it rarely happened (occured by chance). Anyways, as I would always tell myself, "just face it. It's just part of life. Problems are part of life. All of you, yes you, are part of my life. My life revolves around you guys." I always face problems and consequences but sometimes I want to give up (you know).

OKAY.... SO HOW COULD I FIX THIS PROBLEM?

According to my friend, a GOOD apology has 3 parts:

1. I'm sorry.

2. It's my fault.

3. How do I make it right?

As my friend would say, "A lot of people usually miss the third part."

Yes, I believe so. I understand now. It is better I think to fix this problem right away. But how? I really don't know how. Someone Blocks my way. Someone is always there hindering and HAMPERING this progress (I don't know if intentionally or not). And because of this, a lot of people hate me, mad at me, and feel extremely bad towards me (omg). I'M SO SELFISH I THINK. YES I KNOW IT. SO? I DON'T KNOW. LET TIME SOLVE THIS PROBLEM.

ate mm, chapot, chudingmai, and shane.... I'M VERY SORRY. I HAVEN'T TALKED TO YOU OR EVEN CALLED YOU FOR QUITE SOMETIMES BECAUSE OF MY BUSY SCHEDULE. I HAVE NO TIME RIGHT NOW. BUT I PROMISE TO CALL ALL OF YOU WHENEVER I'M FREE. THANKS....

I'M BACK

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRY!!!!!! OMG... It's been a while when I posted something in my blog. I've been so busy these days that I have no time to visit my blog. I'm very sorry.

Today was just a normal day, nothing really special happened except that I went out with my friends last night. The time passed by without even saying that I stressed myself to much.

My work was just the same. I still had the same set of student. All of them, FORTUNATELY, were so nice.

wow... I talked to MS LONDON earlier and she said a lot of things about her trip (NAKO EVA... KUNG BINABASA MO ETO.... MATATAWA KA... AS IN..).

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OMG OMG OMG OMG... WHAT'S HAPPENING HERE?

Two days ago, I was preparing for my lesson when I read an article about this earthquake incident in China. I was so SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD about it. I couln't stop thinking how unfair life was. A lot of people died. And as the days went by, the number of death has also increased.

I still considered myself LUCKY. I know that there is a purpose why that incident happened to CHINA. Life must go on. Yes, all of us have to face it. But I couldn't keep myself of thinking about this natural disaster. I DON'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN AGAIN. I DON'T WANT OTHER PEOPLE SUFFER. I DON'T WANT TO SEE DEAD PEOPLE.

LIFE IS SO UNFAIR... REALLY UNFAIR.

The best thing to for me to do is to enjoy life. I want to value each second. Who knows maybe I'll die tomorrow.

IT'S SATURDAY, ISN'T IT?

OMG.... The day was so exhausting. I still wanted to sleep. I slept at 3:00 AM last night since I talked to Eva and Shemness for about 2 hours, 20 minutes, and 24 second (so exaggerated...lol). I woke up at 6 AM because I have to work... hehe

It's "MOTHER'S DAY".......... I was supposed to go to the mall with my family, but unfortunately, after my lesson earlier this morning, I slept until 3:30 PM... too bad... So.... only my parents went there...

RIGHT NOW, I'M A BIT NERVOUS BECAUSE ONE OF MY STUDENTS LATER ON. I don't want to be humiliated by someone. I hate when other people tell something negatively. I don't even know you so watch your words. I'm trying to be nice... always... so tonight? I DON'T KNOW... I AM WHAT I AM. DON'T BE SO RUDE....OR SO MEAN.... I'm just controlling my temper. I'm almost there... you know. OKAY.... see you then later... be ready... coz I'm ready.


EVA EVA EVA...

WOW. Eva posted some of her pictures with Ms Miho. Miho is so fabulous. She's taller than I thought.

OPPPPPPPPPPS.. AHIA.. AHIA... AHIA... AHIA... EVA? WE'RE FRIENDS, RIGHT?... lol

YOU'RE A USER... I KNOW RIGHT..

I have had no idea what title to post when suddenly this phrase struck my mind. Someone just texted me. "I know right."

The day was so tiring for me. I went to see some of my friends and boss in my work. We just ate lunch in a restaurant, talked about our lessons, discussed some not-so-important matters, and knew each other well. The lunch only took about 1 hour, 1 minute, and 56 seconds.... (OA)... hehe...

continuation later........

JUST SMILE WHEN IT HURTS THE MOST

WAZZZZZUP? I almost forget to write here in my blog. I have been so busy these days doing my final paper. I have no idea but I want to bring this final paper to an end. I'm so stressed of writing this. I'm tired already........ Only few pages left and it's done....

People are so unfair sometimes. WHY? Ask yourself why.

I want to rest. I want to cry. I want to free myself from this deception. I'm tired...almost want to give up....

I don't know what to do tomorrow. I don't want to meet people. I don't want to see them. I don't want to hear them too. WHY? I don't know. I'm feeling restless. I just want to stay inside my room and sleep. I can't explain what I'm feeling right now. It's very vague, indistinct, vacant, enigmatic, obscure, and ambiguous.

FIREWORKS DISPLAY AT MALL OF ASIA

I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING

Why oh why? Yes! I was listening to this music when I remembered someone ...TOINK. hehe.

"I don't want to close my eyes... I don't want to fall asleep"

I wasn't able to write something yesterday because I was so busy. How? Why? How come?

HERE'S WHY:

1- I had my morning lesson.

MR so-so guy
Harry potter
Mr music
Mr Jolly

2- I went to bed (at 1 in the afternoon)after eating lunch because I only slept for two hours the other night. Why? Of course....you know... thinking of someone.....thinking about my problem.. how to solve it...and all that stuffs.

3- I was reading some books about basketball because of my biomecanics paper. I still didn't know what to write. It's better for me to gather some data about it.

4- My stomach was aching the whole day. I haven't told my parents about it, you know. I WAS BLEEDING TOO (internal bleeding I think).
How this started? I have no idea. Maybe because of too much PROBLEM, too much STRESS, and TOO MUCH OF TOO MUCH.

5- Since I have felt that I'm going to die (seriously), I decided to go to MALL OF ASIA with my friends and witness the fireworks display. Thanks to my MOM for the FREE tickets. At least, I enjoyed the night even just for 4 hours. After that, I was so sad again. :(

Something is missing. I can feel it. I don't know why but it keeps on killing me. For me, friendship is really an important, significant, and valuable part of my life. I'm not really comfortable if someone is mad at me. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix it. What I want is to bring back the times when I take satisfaction and enjoy everything with my friend. It's different now. I have to do something to be forgiven by someone. But how? I don't know. It's hard to say when but I really want to heal this wound as soon as I can, or I would say before I die.

HELP ME PLEASE..........I DON'T WANT TO MISS SOMEONE. I don't want to LOSE a friend.

EVERY BREATH I TAKE

What a wonderful day it is.

Again, as always, I slept at 7 AM earlier because I talked to some people last night (chat and call...hehe). It was so weird that I did this thing again. Even if I wasn't feeling good or even if my body just really wanted to rest.

After the lesson last night (about 12:00 midnight): CHACHAPOT sent a message (AGAIN). Another "vongacious" chikahan with my newly-found friends.

OPPPPPS MM also did the same thing. Chudingmai was online too. Shane? Where are you? I wonder...

Here we go again... KIWON bombarded me with lots of messages. We just talked for about 3-4 hours last night. I don't know why but he was so interesting and nice. We just discussed everything. NICE VOICE AHHHHHH

So what's next?

I HAVE A BIG BIG BIG PROBLEM.

I unquestionably don't know how to start my final paper. I just need to motivate myself now. I still have 7 days to do it. 365 days of training program is a NO JOKE. I don't want to stress myself now. I need to restore my energy. I have to relax and give my body a new vigor (okay... just take a shower many times and brush your teeth the whole day...hehe and that would be fine).

Opppps few minutes from now, I will have my lesson.

Mr Music
Harry Potter
Mr kimura
Mrs Old
new stud
Mr Rich
Ms London

Oh! Tomorrow will be a nice day for me. Why? Because I will go somewhere with my friends and watch the fireworks display. I hope to enjoy the day. SO PLEASE..... DON'T RUIN or SPOIL my day. hehe.

Oh......What happened to "N"? I have no idea. We haven't talked for about 4 days, 7 hours, 55 minutes, and....wait.... 12 seconds now... wahaha

OKAY.... TIME WILL HEAL THIS WOUND.... I KNOW IT.... UNLESS.... UNLESS....